Wall...

I really don’t understand…



Why there’s got a lots of complaining?



The shop isn’t clean, then boss or the managers complain.. “We have to keep the shop clean and tidy all the while, I don’t want to see any messy in the shop, you think lar yourself, if the customer see all this thing, how would they think?? Blablabla….”



But then? If the shop too clean and tidy? The customer complain plak! “Aiya, I thought that’s just a reflect wall ler..” “ Alamak~!!”




The customer like to bang the wall…

Afraid

Sometimes I really afraid that I make any wrong decision..
Every decision is authoring my life, every decision is changing my future…

Learn to plan for my life since I was just 12, but after the decision I made when I was 12, I’m a little bit regret. Regret why I choose this as my future.. and making myself suffering in my life..

Look at my own hand, they are so rough with lots of fine lines, telling the tough story of life… Mom said, I got a pair of beautiful hand, but I only can see hows the different between me and other girls..

I hate making decision.. I hate choose my life.. Once you choose, and you find that that’s not what you expect and not what you want, you will regret what you choose. Once you go for it, you don’t have life and time to turn back and restart your life… We don’t have the time machine…

Since I came to KL, I made a lot of decision myself, decide to sign the contract and suffering myself, instead of family suffer with me too.. decide to stay at KL instead of go back to that small state to continue my small life.. decide to fight for my own good instead and sneak and wait for the results out.. but once you asked if I regret for all of these, I don’t know..
I regret, because of I found that my life will be happier if I don’t make that kind of decision.. I’m not regret, because of I found that I can do it, and I can do more than this, I’m more independent than what you expect.. I can be!

Get this from my friend, NicoleFishy,
人生吧,
0 岁出场, 10岁快乐成长
20 为情彷徨, 30 基本定向 , 40 拼命打闯
50回頭望望；60告老還鄉； 70搓搓麻將；
80曬曬太陽；90躺在床上；100掛在牆上...

Well, maybe she also get it from other places.. or forward mail.. but it give me a lot of different thinking..
20 为情彷徨, 20 year-old confusing for love..

Yea, and I’m having the exactly same problem.. I’m confusing again… confusing at, what should I do next, where I should go next, when I should stop next?
Even MrBF keep on telling me that he will respect every decision I make, but I’m nervous.. nervous at the decision I make will regrets me again.. nervous at what will happen at the next after I make the decision… sometimes I rather got people help me to do those decision… help me to settle down..

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Now, I stand at front of the stage, look at the guests sitting in front of me, I don’t know what should I do, I don’t know what I should act.. I’m nervous now…

I should step forward? Or step back??
I should talk? Or sing?
I should walk, passby the stage? Or dance throughout the stage?

I should continue to adventures? Or stay here for my continue sleeping mode?

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Called family last night, we really take turn and talk with each other, 1st mom, she is cooking at that time, then 3rd sister, we talking bout her baby, then my brother, he asked me what’s my decision for the future..

He give me a very special theory,
He said, everyone’s life, is 60% control by the fate, 20% control by the circumstances, only left another 20% control by yourself..

He himself is a very good example, keep on trying to skip from the family, keep on trying to stay a little far away from home, work at few hour driving distance from home, opened a shop, doing business for himself, just because of willing to stay far away from the family business, he really not willing to continue the nursery business I think. But then, ni the end, how struggle he is, still close his own business and come back to our own home, support mom’s nursery business back…

I think, yea it is.. maybe God prepare everything for you, it’s just that maybe your circumstances thinking might change you a little bit, but you won’t run too far away from what God prepare for you…

But yet, God, what you prepared for me?

Survey..

This is another ramdom tag getting from ElwinCindy..
ekek... curi from her one..

Found it interesting so...

1.)Name: Prue Wong
2.) Sex: Female
3.) Email address: keeyungwong@gmail.com
4.) Birthdate: 5th Feb
5.) Family: Parents, 3 sis + 2 bro (a lot lerrr~) 6.) Height: 159cm(short short only)
7.) Weight: 53kg
8.) Something good about yourself: Polite+Strong
9.) Something bad about yourself: Emotional+Blur
10.) Describe your personality in one word: Friendly?
11.) Celebs that you like: Travel & Outings
12.) Songs you like: Any type, as long as I like them..
13.) Fav Season: I would choose spring, autumn and winter, coz it hardly happen at Malaysia.
14.) Game you’re good at: erm… hiking?
15.) My ideal man: the one who willing to pamper me and love me..
16.) If you have to choose between same age/older/younger: Mature.. but mostly choose older, I looked old enough, not willing to bring a “siao didi” out.
17.) Your mood as of now: BORED, and sleepy…
18.) What you have in your pocket right now: My small wallet and my handphone
19.) Sleeping out: Nows a day increasing the place and quantity of sleeping out LOL
20.) Alcohol tolerance: erm.. beer or liquor?
21.) Drinking habits: grenn tea =P
22.) How old were you the first time you drank: 23
23.) When do you want to get married: Never plan at it.. =.=”
24.) About my singing: So so…
25.) About my dancing: seldom dance, learn from friends when club
26.) Something I want these days: Career and love
27.) When you’re home alone: Eat, sleep and watch animationsss..
28.) When you’re standing in front of the mirror: mostly see if my make up ruin or not, then tidy my hair, that’s it.
29.) Clothes you’re wearing as of now: white uniform with green ribbon side.
30.) How much money do you have in your wallet: 36 (not bad)
31.) What you want to buy for your boyfriend: Erm… anything which is affordable =P
32.) Does height matter to you: my height? Yea slightly, but it’s OK, heels can help me up. His heigt? Hell yea,coz I love heels
33.) What song do you sing when you go to sing karaoke: English mostly.
34.) What would you do if you had plans with your friend but they never showed: Upset then go watch movie myself, or call anyone see If they are free or not, then hang out together!!
35.) What would you do if the person you loved cheated on you: Kick him and broke with him, no harm to give second chance. Got once, sure got twice..
36.) How long will you be able to wait for the person you love: erm… tried 2 year plus.. neva try longer time than that..
37.) First kiss: 2004, 1st Bf.
38.) A feature you feel doesn’t need to be fixed: my backside LOL~
39.) Feature you feel should be fixed: Tummy and arms.. still not satisfy with it…
40.) People you miss the most right now: should I say? Family and MrBF
41.) First love: 1st year at K-Hell
42.) When you cried the most: After broke with 1st love.
43.) When do you feel you’re grown up: I have to right now..
44.) What you don’t like: being controlled..
45.) When you felt happy: When I achieve my target and when im with the one I love.
46.) When you were most flabbergasted: umm.. hardly find one.. I think is the one when my mom told me I had to take emergency leave
47.) Best looking person of the opposite gender you’ve seen so far: Best looking?erm… oh yea, a friend from ipoh, BravooLooi, wanna know how handsome he is? Check out my facebook.
48.) Why aren’t you going out with anyone: Right now? At work la dear..
49.) What you feel towards that person: Who? The most handsome one? Well, he is Just a friend..
50.) What would you say to the people actually reading this: I don’t think so, unless my bf I think..
51.) Something I’m most worried about: My future..
52.) When I look most weak: When I’m in front of MrBf
53.) How do you NOT get dumped: Of coz is dump the person 1st before you get dumped.Ha!
54.) 3 things a person NEEDS: Family, Friends and Love
55.) Your grades in school: always so so.. never ever hardworking for study before LOL~
56.) #1 on your phone: forget oledi. Think still the 1st bf, neva change coz neva know how to use!
57.) Phone company: Samsung and Old Nokia
58.) Phone bill: increasing the budget since I get my bf.. =P sis going to kill me..
59.) Place you want to go: Every Corner!! I want Travel!!
60.) Favorite TV program: Never had it since I came KL
61.) Movie that pissed you off: That C2pid Wakenabeb I think..
62.) Movie you watched with most meaning: Erm.. meaningful… my brain is full of glue now..
63.) Most recent movie watched: Bride War! Damn Funny and Damn nice movie
64.) Movie you want to recommend: Just watch it if you wanna watch!
65.) If you could become a character inside a movie: Winsterpon, eventhough it’s start with damn sucks life, but I love the lovely ending with her love..
66.) How many cafes are you a member to: None, I hate cards now a day
67.) Which do you go to most often: Non specific, but I think old town café.
68.) What you feel about this café: Bored but no choice..
69.) What you want to say to the starter of the café: Don’t too much similar, if not still bored!! And diff decoration will attract youngsters too.
70.) You believe it is okay to marry someone else to save the person that you love: Ermm.. see the condition lar..coz it’s even more hurt if you marry to the one you hate! >.<
71.) What would you do if your parents didn’t bless your decision to get married: Time will change their mind..(same quote with Cindy)
72.) Do you think you’re a player: yea think so.. at least someone is think like that..
73.) What time do you wake up:8am...
74.) When you go to sleep: no specific, but will feel sleepy after 12.30am
75.) If someone you met for the first time asked for your number: Know this will happen all the time, will see all the condition 1st..
76.) What would you do if you liked someone at a meeting : umm.. dunno, mayb will just look at him hungrily Hahahahhaa~
77.) Celebrity you want to go out with: erm.. Mike Shinoda?
78.) How many kids do you want: Hahahahah! Ask my future husband 1st arh!
79.) Something I really want to be good at: Be Steady in front of Bosses.
80.)What do you want to be in 10 years time? : Achieve my target and proud to tell my story to my kids at next 10 years.
81.) Someone you’re jealous of as of now: erm.. those ladies achieved at young >.<
82.) A word that you use a lot: Huh!?
83.) What I do when I first wake up: Lay back and nap more mins..(My mom said im sleeping beauty LOL)
84.) What would you do if you picked up a million dollars: Damn lucky meh? Later Bank is the 1st suspect im the robber lerr when I wanna bank in that million dollar.. =.=”
85.) What would you do if you became invisible: Hell yeah
!! can travel everywhere FREEEEEE~
86.) Singer you think is the best singing live: Erm… no idea ler… hehehe..
87.) Singers you don’t understand why they even sing: non-of-my-business
88.) A kind of man you don’t like: horny, neva know how to take care himself, selfish, C2pid thinking as thought himself as funny
89.) A kind of woman you don’t like: acting, selfish, horny and so on..
90.) What would you do if you found someone you love more than the person you’re dating right now: Open big big eyes and see if that’s just a lust.
91.)What would you feel if you met someone you’ve broken up with: Nothing special, still friend.. and he is the one who suppose to feel regret to lose me, Not Me!
92.) Most important possession: Life
93.) What you do when you first get online: PLURK
94.) What surprised you the most: When my MrBF hint me that the gal he found is ME, and it happen just after 7 days we greet each other.
95.) What you do when you can’t fall asleep: Roll on the bed, or get up to get some alcohol which I store in my cupboard (evil_grind)
96.) What do you think you were in your past life: I was wasting my own time playing around and working with mom, lost my talent and dunno what’s my talent at all! But it makes my mom happy at now, at least she don’t feel gek sim when talking bout me this youngest daughter. Good or bad? Judge yourself.
97.) If you were to be born again: Umm.. I wanna be at better family.
98.) What are you going to do after you finish this: Prepare to go back from work.
99.) How honest were you: Too honest, till I myself dunno how to say..
100.) What do you want to say: Damn that bitch make me sick when I finish this survey.

Dare Or Not?

Does anyone DARE to go to this kind of toilet??
*p/s : it's the lady's room of course...

Nonsence...

It’s been long time I didn’t read the books, too boring these days, without networking, only can read the magazines and magazines.. Comics? Have to be careful now, or else that stupid monkey (as a friend, vectorbot said so) will follow reading those useless comics in the shop, then manager blame me again. So, I pick one book which I stop at half long time ago, restart again reading it, found a interesting article.

It talking bout how the writer’s parent train him as better personality and attitude. It said, thanks to parent that even though they didn’t give the writer a very good and rich family, but giving him a very good sample to be a better man. It makes me think of mom.

She love to get more knowledge since she was young, she still doing home study even though she can’t go to school, she get chance to know the distance learning from Taiwan School, which is free and only need to spend on mailing, then can get her cert. actually she study a lot, compare with other at the same ages..

She is too busy to teach us anything, and she hardly helping us to get improve our study too, so no choice but letting us spoil our study ourselves, but lucky that all of us did the not really that bad job, all sisters got graduate at their secondary nice nice, then my brother get his diploma which he studied, then me, badly graduate from high school, get to study at KL, and get a training with study, get now me.

Mom asked me if I regret or not using all of my time on her business but not my own student life.. umm…. My answer to her is, “ Well, time past, why should we think of good or bad at it? Everything happen had their own reason, especially at the time happened, like you not allow me to get driving license when I was 18. The Big reason you gave me was, girl no need to learn driving so soon and not necessary with it, and afraid that I would become the second Siew(my 2nd sister), driving car flying here and there after get the license ,ran far far away to another town. But the fact is, you don’t even wanna tell me that you don’t have enough cash letting 2 kids get their license at the same time.” Yea, nearly at the same time, cause my younger brother was waiting to get his driving license too. Well, of cause I won’t blame my mom, because I know that I spend more money than other sibling, monthly study fees sucking her blood badly.

But haha.. Luckily that I didn’t ask her to take out more money on my diploma study, if not I think I still listening her blaming and complaining tho.. =P

But yet, thanks to mom I got chance to study Chinese Secondary School even though it’s god damn pricey for her, thanks to mom that I still got a little bit time to join athlete, join Chinese Musical Club, show on stages, and join a little bit of activities in school, which dad always complain that I didn’t help them up but only sneak at school playing around!
And thanks to mom got asked me if I need more tuition eventhough I know it’s another debt for her if I do. I know I didn’t study well at that time, all I need is just time management, but not those stupid wasting money tuitions, unless English language. I never manage to learn how to speak English at all, even though teacher is forcing us to speak, but still hard for me.. Cause we always have chance to get silent ekek…

Eh, sounds like out of topic jor.. =P

But I also dunno what’s my topic lar actually hahahahhaha~ Well, just write randomly, too bored at work!!

But oh ya!! Thanks to mom that teaching me to be an independence girl since I was just 11 or 12!! Training me to be strong alone and training me to handle everything alone!! (I think she train me since I was just 10 =.=”) And now, I think I’m too strong till no one would like to help me haha! Cause they really found no need =P especially my previous senior LOL~





Am I look independent now?? Hehehe.. ask MrBF, he probably know a little bit..

in the future =P

HomeSick

Just saw one of my Plurk’s friend from Kuching, Sarawak mention bout the local drink, Ular Panas, gao gao! Remind me that I used to love UlarPeng long time ago, gao gao sumore, remind me how different the ais kacang between Sarawak and KL one, remind me of my local Kampua again, remind me of the traditional food “diam miangu”, remind of all the local drink and food from Sarawak. I just release that, it’s really been long time I didn’t go back to my own hometown, and realize that I totally forget the taste of those foods and drinks.. =(

I dreamt of my mom before, and it makes me feel sad too. MrBF said I miss my home. Yea.. I really do miss my home, since last year December, I keep on thinking and plurks all the feeling of miss my hometown, and the feeling of wills to go back hometown. Wills of settle down at hometown, wills of deny coming out K-Hell again, and wills of follow mom’s suggestion.

Remember of resolution I had made at beginning of the year, just decided not to get any partner anymore at this year, mom suddenly said that I will meet a partner, even though will suffering in time when with this partner, but will be together at the end. It’s just like, make a resolution and against my own resolution, LOL~ Mom said, wait and see if I will get any boyfriend or not, but I think she still haven’t gotten ready that I will get any partner so soon. Until now, I still not dare to tell her that, I fell in love again. Stupid me… Against the only resolution I had made for myself.

I realize that, I really forget a lot of thing from my hometown. I forget how to get bus, I forget when the school finish, and hard to get any teacher after the schooling time. We talked bout the foods and drinks already, and I forget how kind of those uncles and aunties treating me, and how hamsap those uncles look at me if I wear a little bit nicer shirt or shorter pant. =P

For God Sake, Do I Really Become Half KL-people Already?
Where Is My Innocent Heart From Hometown?

Thinking back when I doing my work, when is my last time going back hometown?? As not counting the last year August to Kuching, cause that is not my real real home…

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I totally forget!!

Happy Valentine

Happy Valentine to Every Coupleee~~~

Today is 14th Feb, every couple is going out with their another half, pair by pair, try to knock out more money for letting their another half happier in this day… Dinner, Travel, Gift, Love… Everyone is talking bout this and keep asking bout this.. What should give ya? How to celebrate ya? What time both are free YA!??

Why I say like this? Ha! That’s just because of, today is Saturday, not everyone isn’t working at Saturday OK? For example, ME. I’m working today, till 9pm some more, and those work as retail shop as me, shopping mall staffs, They All Working. Those officers who have to work at Saturday, half day or full day.. The Shopping Mall Workers, I think they just celebrate with those couple customers is enough already, look at them happily, is the most enjoyable and cruelness thing ever..

Well, I’m working today, as I told as above, till 9pm… What I can do with my MrBF after 9pm?? Watching midnight movie packed with full of couples?? Or get an enjoyable candlelight dinner with bloody pricey meal?? Ummm… I think most of me(gal) will choose candlelight dinner cause this is the 1st valentine I was attached, paiseh..

But.. I decided not to choose anyone of them at my birthday, and I decided not to celebrate the Valentine day as well.

Why? Cause I’m not Christian, LOL~

And I celebrate my Valentine day everyday LOL~ Especially since I be with MrBF, ekekek….

Why would I say that?? Cause…. Since I starting our relationship, he go back to his hometown, and I go travel with my friends’ families at Langkawiiiiii… and I bought a lots of CHOCOLATE for myselfff~~ ekekek…

And they all are… ALCOHOLIC FILL CHOCOLATE…

My Most Favourite! Sllrrrpp…*tongue out*








Isn’t the Chocolate is the most important thing to gift your love?? Hehehe… I bought it myself, and eat together with MrBF~ not bad right?? ;)

Sadly, most of them I send it to my lovely brother jor… I only left the Duc d’O for myself…






i love this flavour...