Love is Drugs

0800 am
I have no idea why he pop out to my brain again, and everything is so good and so nice..
and I found that, I wish I can wake up with his smiling face, I wish he is the one who makes me warm.. after check the time, and also the message. no

It remind me back the poem I did before..

Love is just like the Drug,
Once you touch it,
You will addicted to it,
When you wanna get over it,
It takes half of your life..

Hahaha... it's really like drugs,
he is really like a drugs..

My hand is shaking, like my addiction is coming..
I addict to his love, his care, his touch, his hug, his kiss, his... everything..
He makes me feel so desperate.
Gosh I don't want to be desperate.. >.<

It's too late..

Everything come out in a sudden,
and the result after that sudden,you need to pay what you had done.

10.00 pm 12/12/2008
Everything come in a sudden, I suddenly message him a very weird message.
Believe it or not, I miss you!
I don't know if it shock you or not, I likes you!
I don't care if you run away, I fell in love with you!
i'm not going to tell you officially, cause I'm not a brave gal!
Please use your action to tell me the answer.
If you do wanna be with me, do find me,
if not, please just run away from me.. thx!

Everything is really come in a sudden, and I myself not so sure if this is the original message I sent to him or not.. I wait.. NO! I'm not waiting! I'm wait for my friend call me out for YamChar session! I told myself like this... and keep on look at the phone, till I fall asleep..

01.00 am 13/12/2008
I awake! look at the phone, it's one, no message, no miss call..
Ha! so funny.. everyone is not come to me.. even him.

I lose... I lose him, I lose myself, I lose everything...
In this sudden, I feel my hurt been hit.. It's not pain, it's like, when someone is using the pillow hit you strongly, the feel is not on the skin.. it's on your heart directly.. It's not pain, it's..breathless..

I starting shagging.. I starting afraid.. I starting regret..so regret to everything I had done..
Why couldn't I just wait and see? Is just because of I can't take it to just WAIT?
Why couldn't I just take some more time to observe? Is that just because I'm really rush for everything in my life?
Why couldn't I just ...

I so regret to what I had done,
I wish i didn't send the message,
I wish I still can get his hug,
I wish I still can look at him when he is napping,
I wish I still can laugh with him,
I wish I still can happy with him,
I wish he still can be my Angel..

But yet.. everything is too late, I sent the message, he didn't find me, even a message reply..

just a thought..

I wish no one is going to read my this post..
cause it's all under English word and alphabet only..

I'm the gurl who like to think bout future,
plan bout future, dream bout future, and put myself into future..

thinking of..
what would happen in the future if..

a lots... a lots.. good, bad, sissy, weird..
whatever you can think of, I can too...those you can't , or you not dare, I dreamed it too..
and... i dreamed something, which every girl dream of..

And.. it surprised me, cause I never think of my this dream will coming so early..
I'm just 23, not yet into 24, and shit, the Aunty got telling me that I'm going to marry at 24.
hope it won't happen!!
*sigh*
but.. the dream is coming, can i not to believe it?

Skytrex

I had a very good one day trip with my friends and new friends.

My friend ,Steven help me to organize a trip to go SkyTrex at Bukit Cahaya,Shah Alam. I'm just try to invite my friends only. After bout 2 weeks time inviting, sad that no one would like to follow me, but lucky that Chanhui's colleague wanna go, so we all bout 6 person only appear.
They are: Steven, Pon Ying, Bernad, Chan hui, Rose, and me.

We all gather at 7.30am at Kuchai Lama, had our breakfast. After that only we heading to there, well I'm so sorry that I dunno the way to go there, coz im in napping, sleepyyy~~~


Rental shop, for you to rent the bycicle.


So sad we are too late to get a bike.

After arriving there, we thinking of wanna rent a bycicle and cycle ourself to go there, but we are too late to get one, so no choice, we only can wait for the bus to go there, the distance is bout less than 5 mins time. Once we get there, we are preparing to get our tools!!


you can see them,excluding me,haha..

I'm the 1st one who wearing the tool, and I feel hurt once I wear it, LOLs really weird feeling, imagine that you wearing a very very tight jeans and you will feels weird at down there when you walking..


This is how high the 1st stage.

After we all get our tools, the person in charge teach us how to use all the stuff, then we need to go throught the small test, then only we can go for the skytrex. The 1st stage is bout 2 to 3 floor height, you need to climb up there then only starting for the dangerous, scary and exciting game..

All of them totally it's bout 14 stage, and you will find it's tired from the 1st stage you climb up to there wtf.



The most fun and the most relax one is when you do flying over from this stage to that stage haha.. but you will feel scary before the 1st step you have to step over..



It's really hard to describe with you guys how fun the game, and it's the outdoor gaming, costing you RM35 per head for reantal all these stuff..



and for those if you are afraid of height, no worry, they can do it, you can do it too!
only bout 3rd floor height nia mar... not bad lar... ;)


This is the map for the whole garden, and the Skytrex Adventure is at one small place only...one small coner of this map.

Thanks to my friend, if not him, I wont have this kind of time to come here, the Skytex Adventure..
After a day resting my muscle is very very painful and only realise that how much I hurt myself lol, not posting here coz I'm afriad later on my family scold me lolz.

Oh ya, there's got a different painful is , last time pain at my legs, this time is pain at my hands.. really feel pain at my 2 arms...